The World Would Be Less Violent If People Were Using Huala-Hoops

Hello,

Right now I'm sitting in my room at my desk listening to "Air On A G String" by the Scottish Orchestra (no need for any puns here). It's one of those songs that I can always put on repeat and feel like everything in the world will be OK even when I know that it's too hard to do... Recently my parents have been giving me a hard time. I'm sick to death about it all... They keep going on about college and how I'm not putting my best into it, but only if they knew how I felt about the place. It is the most cliquey place in the entire world, school was NEVER this bad. IT's like evry girl is competeing to be the next Sienna Miller, and I for one am not one of those people. The course I'm doing lacks drive, I feel like I'm a child again, the lecturers are crap and monotoned and it's not what I ever imagined life after school would be like. So instead I sleep in, don't attend class, and pretend that evrything is OK. I told my mum how I felt and how I still want to do make up and beauty therapy and how it's all I think about day in day out, and she agreed that I can apply for college just down the road from me and that if I get in I don't have to go back to UCD, which nearly had me in tears with excitment. I just hope I do get in because alot is riding on me getting into that college because if I dont I have to go back to that hello-hole and deal with the shitness that is life at the moment. I feel like I can't mes up at home or NOT study in the slightest (I have no concentration so I never study) or else people will be on my case no end. I basically just want to tell people where the fuck to go and to let them realise that it's my life and if I fuck up, it's on my shoulders, not theirs, despite what they think. I just know that if I do get into this course I will most definitely kick ass. Make up is my passion and it's what I do when I'm alone in my room. I look up websites on how do different looks, I spend the majority of my money on make up and brushes, I note what way a celeb did their make up to a certain premiere and try to imitate it. It's my life. It consumes my thoughts and energy. I know it sounds sad but it's the truth... Wow that was a rant and a half. Needed that.

If anyone does read this let me know if anything like this has ever to you :)

Alice (Queen of the Rants). xo